Amanda Beck.
08 January 2008 @ 05:58 pm

Today was excellent.

I started winter semester today, which I was excited about. As much as I complain about school, I really enjoy being there. It confirms that I'm doing something with my life and planning a good future for myself.

The first class of the day was Sociology. My professor was a bit late because of a room switch. The syllabus doesn't seem too difficult; three article reviews, a take-home multiple choice part of the midterm and final and an in-class essay part for both in which you can use your lecture notes and your book. He gave us the midterm today to work on over the course of the next seven weeks, so I'll have plenty of time to work on that. My teacher is really nice and a cute old man, but his overbearing Italian accent is very hard to sort through during lecture. Half the class I thought he was speaking Italian and he rattles off stories every other second,  so out of a 45 minute lecture, I had five sentences of notes.

I had Political Science right after that, five classrooms down, and the schedule is intense. Along with a lot of reading, we have a model U.N. to prepare for and participate in with five other classes that meet at the same time we do, and a lot of quizzes and tests. My teacher is a good teacher, but pretty intense and strict, ie. four unexcused absences and you're kicked out of the class. If he sees your cellphone once, he gives you one warning and after that, you're excused from the class for the day, counting as an unexcused absence. There's a lot of work to do in that class, so that should be fun. We already have one old man in the back of the classroom that is totally anti-politics and argued with my professor almost the entire last thirty minutes. 

I had an hour and a half lunch break, so I ate a sandwich and some crackers and called my babylove. I talked to him for awhile and then my phone went nuts, so I went to my next class and so did he.

World Religion was not what I thought it would be. I thought it'd be a lot of reading, papers, and discussion and that doesn't seem to be the case. I have an older man for a professor and he loses his train of thought a whole lot. I fell asleep during the explaination of the syllabus because he was taking so long and everyone was talking through it. We took plenty of notes, but it's hard to follow him when he can't even follow himself. Everyone loves him though, we had five people standing in our class waiting to see if they could drop in. So, he must be at least halfway amazing.

Math was right after that, and boy, I was not in the mood for that. My teacher had nothing but bad reviews from other students online, but he doesn't seem that bad to me. We took two pages of notes and he gave us plenty of homework. It was the only class of the day to assign homework or even teach material for more than an hour. I was pretty tired at the end of the class.

That was it for school, so I headed off to a lady's house so she could interview me to babysit her son. I got there, stayed there for an hour and some change and got the job :) She's really nice. It's her first baby and I'm the first person to ever watch him, so she's a little nervous about that, but she was excited about how much experience I've had with babies. I'll be starting next Thursday, babysitting until 5:30/6pm every night after class and making $20ish a week. It's perfect as far as fitting in with my schedule goes and I was looking for something small. It'll pull in an extra $80 a month, so that'll be my saving money.

I also got my letter from Novi today, so that is completly over. Fin, fin, finished.

So, today was a nice day. I'm a little tired, but Theresa and I are going out to dinner around 8:30. Afterwards, I'm coming home to sleep and sleeping until 10am tomorrow, when I have to get ready for a ten hour shift.

My mom asked me how school was today, weird.

 
 
Amanda Beck.
29 December 2007 @ 12:35 am
Juno was probably one of the best movies I've seen in a long time.
I love dinner and movie nights.

I work tomorrow, that's going to be one hell of a time. I've worked maybe three Saturdays in the past two semesters and it's a mid-shift, so I'm sure it'll drag on all day.

I have Monday off, which was awful nice of Kirk. My entire family is leaving and I work at 7am the next morning, so Sergio and I will more than likely have a quiet evening here. We're going to make dinner, maybe a watch a movie or two. It'll be nice. I love having the house to ourselves. It's like having our own little place for a few hours, feels nice.

 
 
 
Amanda Beck.
26 December 2007 @ 06:00 am
 Christmas was wonderful :)
Sergio painted me two paintings; both look amazing and instantly made me tear up. He also bought me a picture of Grand Central Station that I've wanted for a long time. He's amazing. I made him some cookies, bought him two belts, and halfway made him a scarf. It turns out crocheting is pretty difficult, so hopefully I finish it before the weekend is over.

We spent Christmas Eve at Mike's parent's house. Yesterday we opened presents here, had dinner at my grandpa's, and went over my cousin's house. I got pretty much everything I asked for; Without a Trace Seasons 1 & 2, a DVD player, a new straightener, Man on Fire, Adam Sandler movies, money, good stuff.

I can't wait for New Years Eve. I'm really excited to spend it with Sergio this year.

Hopefully, work isn't too crazy today. My least favorite thing to do is ring up returns...so it should be interesting. I'm excited I work mornings. I haven't worked a Wednesday morning in a long time and now I have time to work out afterwards, woot.
 
 
Amanda Beck.
20 December 2007 @ 01:14 pm
So final grades:
Biology - C
Spanish - C+
English - A

I got a 295/300 on my final research paper, which was amazing and the highest grade in the class :) My GPA is 2.54 now, which makes me content. After I replace that E in the math class I dropped and didn't even take, it'll be much higher. I have a good feeling about next semester. I'm already excited for my classes and having three days off of work a week.

I'm almost done with my Christmas shopping. I bought my mom a few fragrances from Victoria's Secret that she's wanted for a long time, a digital keychain, and a calendar. I bought Alyssa a Pirates of the Carribean calendar, made her a scrapbook that I'm halfway through, a photo snowglobeand I might pick her up some odds and ends at the dollar store. I was going to buy her a few sweaters at Old Navy, but she's so picky, I wouldn't want to take the chance. I bought Julia a photo snowglobe, made her a scrapbook, and I'm going to look for a pair of boots she wanted and the Sims for PS2. I still need to finish making Sergio's present, which is going to keep me up late for the next few nights :) and finish my grandma's photo book. I get really nervous about getting everyone the perfect present, or one they will enjoy a little bit. It takes me forever to shop for other people.

I'm more than sure I'm still transferring to another CVS in January. I've been in the worst mood because of that place the past four days. Kirk thinks of me as one of his best employees, which is nice, but it's not nice when he gives me all the ridiculous things to do because he knows I'm the only one that will actually do them. I have enough stress with running an entire department by myself with little to no help, and he is constantly piling other responsibilities that are not mine on me. So, I'm just done with it all. Carlos is coming back, which might relieve a little of my stress. We shall see.

I have no plans for the rest of the day. I'm sure I'll be seeing Sergio, I hope I will be. 

<3
 
 
Amanda Beck.
11 December 2007 @ 06:12 am
 Four hours of sleep puts me in the worst  mood. I left at midnight, I'm going back in at 7am because my store manager is a huge jerk.

Biology final today, wish me luck!
 
 
Amanda Beck.
10 December 2007 @ 01:49 pm

 My phone broke, again. After not being able to talk on it all night, a drive to the T-Mobile store, waiting on hold to talk to six different people for an hour and a half, and putting up with the stupid automated person they have, I got an upgraded brand spanking new phone, free of charge. Plus, overnight delivery, so it'll be here tomorrow :)

It's a Samsung Blast. I'm not too fond of the color scheme; black with red accents, but I'm sure it'll grow on me or I can find a cheap replacement color for the back. It's a smaller version of the Blackberry, so it has all the organization tools on it, which is excellent for me.

Anywho, I'm probably going to throw a party walking out of Bio tomorrow. I'm not sure how well I'll do on my final, but I'm never confident on tests. I've studied, am going to keep studying, and I have three hours tomorrow after work to study some more. 

Staying open until midnight is completely pointless. I had zero customers from 10:30-12pm. Not one person walked through the door. We have three huge signs on the front windows that say we're open until midnight now and customers were still asking me how late we were open. All anyone wanted was rock salt anyways. That's probably all I rang up all night.

It's pretty gross outside with the ice. I wish snow would throw itself into the mix. It'd be a little more bearable :)

I am not looking forward to working until midnight and then working again at 7am. Boo that.

I'm selling my books back Wednesday. I should get a lot of cash, as I spent $140 for the Bio book I've opened once. They better use it next semester, I hate when they update things and you have random schoolbooks taking up space.

I want to play Pictionary.

 
 
Amanda Beck.
10 December 2007 @ 01:18 am
 Hopefully with school over Wednesday, I can finally enjoy Christmas/wintertime. 

I haven't seen the downtown lights or walked around in the cold or even been outside when it was snowing. I haven't had hot cocoa and I didn't even get to see the first snowfall :( I'd really love to spend a day in Frankenmuth, I've only been there once.

I'm counting the seconds until I walk out of my classroom Wednesday. I can't wait to just be done for a few weeks. I need a vacation.

We're open until midnight starting tonight. It was pretty rough. My body automatically shut down around 10:30 and I lost all motivation to do anything. I close tomorrow night too. I can't wait to have all day Thursday with nothing to do either. 

Saturday is Alexx's birthday dinner. I can't wait to see her and Sammy. I haven't seen Sammy in forever. Eliza and I have seen each other quite often lately, girl time is always nice.

I can't sleep.
 
 
Amanda Beck.
04 December 2007 @ 11:12 pm

I just finished my research paper. What a load off my shoulders. I have my works cited page left, as it's what I dread most out of writing a paper, but I'm sick of looking at it. It'll take me fifteen minutes tops anywho, so tomorrow.

I found out I only have the lab part of my bio exam Thursday, which is half the test I usually have. Our lecture isn't until Tuesday,so that gives me some time this weekend to buckle down and really crack the book open.

After I present my composition tomorrow, Spanish class will be done. I have a simple quiz instead of a final, so that's nice. I also don't have a final in Comp, just the paper I just finished. So one final for me this semester, sounds good.

Sergio and I have studied together the past two days. I study so much better with him around, for some reason. I trust his opinion more than I trust my own, which comes in handy when writing papers and practicing my composition that I present tomorrow.
Seeing him more than usual wasn't too bad either :)

Work has been a little easier to deal with lately. Kirk and I are getting along a little more everyday. He really surprised me today when he told me to write up whoever didn't do what they were supposed to in photo this weekend while I was off. I wrote up two people and it felt nice to put my foot down and have someone stand behind me, for once.

Home is home. I haven't been here much with all the homework I've been squeezing in. Julia really liked her comforter set, she finally got the last piece in the mail today. I got a $20 gift card out of her present for it being shipped late, so woot.

I want to go to the Rockettes. I didn't go last year, boo.

Welp, bedtime.

 
 
Amanda Beck.
29 November 2007 @ 06:11 am
 Today is Julia's 17th birthday, she's growing up so fast.

I work six days next week. I'm not sure why I agreed to that, especially with a composition, research paper, and a huge bio test next week, but we'll see how that goes.

We're getting a visit next week from important people at work, so all next week and this weekend I have to work on getting my department up to par. I have to make a lot of signs here at home and they want me to make a board or something, I'm not sure.

I see Sergio tomorrow, that's probably the most exciting part of my entire week. I've missed him a lot this week, as I always do, but it won't be too long now.

I wish I knew more about my car, like how to put air into my tire. Hopefully, my tire holds up until Sergio can put air in it tomorrow. 

Alexx and I went shopping the other night, that was nice. I've missed my Al and we always have such good talks. I went to see Fred Claus with Eliza on Tuesday night, good movie. We were the only two people in the entire show, so that was nice. We talked as loud as we could about anything and everything.

Jay-Z is so rich and always on tv in the morning. Must be niceeee.
 
 
Amanda Beck.
26 November 2007 @ 09:56 pm

I miss my dad.
This part of this episode makes my heart break.



Oh, life.
 
 
Amanda Beck.
20 November 2007 @ 12:38 am

So I forgot that being full-time means I get paid 8 hours at regular rate every holiday, regardless of whether I work or not. If I do work, I get that 8 hours at regular rate plus however many hours I work at time and a half.

Veteran's Day I worked 10 hours for time and a half + 8 hours at regular rate. 
Thanksgiving I'll work 6 hours for time and a half + 8 hours at regular rate.


I love having full-time benefits and holidays!
I'll probably pee my pants on Friday when I get my check, and the Friday after that.

P.s. This also means, Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, I'll get paid 8 hours a day for not being there and get paid 55 hours that week too. Shoot.

 
 
Amanda Beck.
17 November 2007 @ 01:20 pm
 Things between my mom and I get worse as the day Mike will be moving in comes closer.
His entire house is basically being moved into our basement. My mom is building a garage this summer because he wants one. She's getting rid of all her bedroom furniture because he doesn't want to give up hers. 
I tried to be calm, have a nice conversation with her, let her know how I felt about her changing her entire life for a man every single time she goes through one. She called me unreasonable and told me I was just being mean because things weren't going my way. I apparently don't want to see her happy. 
I brought to her attention that Julia planned on staying at home and going to community college until my mom announced Mike was moving in. That day, all of a sudden, Julia wanted to move away and never come home to visit. She went crazy, just yelling and ignoring everything I was saying. I told her that she doesn't care about what anyone wants or says if it isn't what she wants or says. It was just a big mess.
I'm sure the mess is going to enlarge as the next week goes on. He's moving in next weekend. I wish I was moving out next weekend.


Living in this house makes me more upset each and every day.
 
 
Amanda Beck.
13 November 2007 @ 07:32 am
 I've been studying for my Biology test for the past few days. I woke up at six am this morning to study more and I'm still pretty sure there's no passing this thing. I hate tests and studying. I can never pass a test, even with a million hours of studying. Horrible test anxiety or something. Who knows. I'll probably need to retake it.

Work is horrible. Hopefully Kevin transfers Kirk out during his annual January rotations. I think if enough of us call him and let him know what's going on, he will. I'm planning on calling him on Friday and asking him for a transfer. Even if he doesn't want to transfer me, he'll at least know that the store is getting so bad that I'll be the third person to ask for a transfer/refuse to transfer to our store. I miss my old store and working with old people. Matilda from 8029 brought me a gift card for always letting her borrow photo supplies. I thought it was pretty sad that not even my store manager can say thank you or good job and be sincere about it, but a lady I don't even know goes out of her way to make sure I know she appreciates me. Lol.

I'm ready for Friday night, broccoli soup, and a lot of cuddling.
 
 
Amanda Beck.
05 November 2007 @ 11:37 pm
 Listening to Alicia Keys is one of the most relaxing things in the world.

I scheduled winter classes today; Sociology, Political Science, Math, Comparitive Religion. I talked to Kirk about my schedule, he didn't seem very happy. I told him I wanted three days off: Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday. I told him I would want to work 8 hour shifts, 4 times a week to cut my hours down to 32, he told me he needed me to open up a fifth day, I said I couldn't, he said he'll just have to work me 12 hours on Wednesday, so I'd still be working 38 hours a week with my classes. Thanks? Whatever.

I also got an e-mail back from the education advisor from Marygrove. Spanish is only considered a minor, so I have to pick a major. I'll probably go with History, I've always had a really strong interest in it. So I'll be a Spanish and History teacher, or something.

I haven't been sticking to my diet lately. I haven't had the energy to work out either. Excuses, I need to get my rear in motion. I just enjoy my free time. I like a break every once in awhile. So, I don't know. I wanted to lose a lot of weight by Christmas, that's in two months, so we'll see.

Christmas break is coming fast, along with the end of the semester. I can't wait for it to snow, to listen to Christmas songs, and drink hot chocolate constantly. The only thing that is thumbs down about Christmas is Sergio leaving, of course. It'll be horrible not seeing him for two+ weeks in a row, I'm sure it'll get harder every year. I'd rather him see his family though, he only gets to see them once a year. He sees me plenty. I don't even know what I'm going to get him for Christmas.

For some reason, my heating vent doesn't blow any hot air into my room. It doesn't feel too nice early in the morning.

Veruca is sleeping underneath my legs. She's so cute, melts my heart. Carlita has been really inactive lately, because of how freezing it is up here. She just sits around with her legs tucked in and she's so cold when I pick her up. I have to look into a stronger heating lamp bulb or something. Poor baby :(

I need to clean my room and do homework tomorrow.
I love bundling up in my coat outside.
 
 
Amanda Beck.
03 November 2007 @ 01:28 pm
 I went to a pre-education conference at school this morning and figured out my life for the millionth time.

I haven't taken all the prereqs required to transfer to any four year program at a university for teaching. In fact, I've taken about 1/4 of the credits I would need. So for the next three semesters at Henry Ford, I basically have to start all over again. Only five classes out of the twelve I have taken count towards transferring, so I wasted a bunch of money and time. So, new slate, new classes. I just have to make sure that I have all 64 credits, ready to transfer in the beginning of fall semester 2009. 

I've been a little depressed all day about starting all over. I'm not too happy about half of my classes not even counting, especially the classes I busted my hump to pass. I wish I would have picked a major and set it in stone before starting my freshman year of college so that none of this would be happening. I changed my major eight times last year, bad choice. I'm not too happy about having to renew my teaching certificate by take two semesters worth of college credits every three years during my teaching career either. I don't like school now and I'm certainly not looking forward to being in college on and off until I retire.

I'm going to Marygrove when all my credits are done. It really seems like an amazing school. The representative said scholarships get handed out left and right if you apply a year ahead of the semester you'll be attending and have over a 3.0, so that's nice. It's also only $7,190 flat rate for a 12-18 credit hour semester, which the state should cover most of. I'm sure that figure will be larger by Fall 2009, but it'll still be not too large of a number. I was thinking about University of Detroit Mercy, until the rep pointed out to me that tuition was ONLY $15,000 a semester. Lol, what? No way. 

I'm debating whether to take that CNA Certification class or continue with my teaching credits next semester. CNA Certification just means more money and more work hours squeezed into three days. I do like CVS; they work well around my school schedule, days off are never a problem, and minus the random shifts where everyone is being ridiculous, it's not too bad. I get paid a good amount of money, enough to pay the bills, and my photo department has been looking really nice lately. I'm not too sure of what to do, but I'll need to figure that out by Monday at 8am when winter registration begins.

Julia is going to Albion next year. I'm not too sure what to think about that. I'm happy that she is finally getting out of Downriver and will get to experience more, but it's going to be pretty lonesome around here. I've been having a hard time with it. She's my baby sister and it's always been her and I against the world. I know she won't be too far away, but she won't be just a flight of stairs away either. I'm just trying to be happy for her right now. My overactive emotions are nothing I can't handle.

El fin.
 
 
Current Mood: sad
 
 
Amanda Beck.
30 October 2007 @ 07:28 pm

My family party on Saturday:

Rocco and myself with a creepster smile.


One of my three cakes.


My last year as a teenager.


Told you. Alyssa is a baking machine. We still have so much cake upstairs.


Sergio thought I'd look better with cake on my nose.


Yapping my jaws and being happy.


I'm probably the worst cake-cutter ever.


My ten year old cousin bought me this doll because she said it reminded her of Sergio. I don't see how, but she's ten and has a creative mind, lol.


My grandma bought me a season of Law & Order: SVU. Julia and I have been watching marathons of it lately and we were both excited.


Baby.


My sisters:


And my momma:


Sergio and I went to a gala dinner for his CBS organization at Wayne State. It was really fancy and nice and we ate really good food. 
I got cold, so being the gentlemen Sergio is, he gave me his coat.


On Sunday, Sergio and I drove to St.Clair Shores to go to church with my grandpa. We stopped at Meijers beforehand to get some cough drops for my poor coughing babykins. He gave me my presents! He bought me a doodle bear because my mom never let me have one when I was younger (they were too messy, apparently). It had glitter and stickers and all kinds of stuff, probably the messiest one, lol :) He bought me an 8-ball too because I've never had one. We bought cough drops and drove to church. My grandpa had a birthday party for me at his house after church:


I had another cake there.
My mom's arm looks crazy in this picture.


We weren't sure what everyone was doing, so I sang a fast version of "Happy Birthday" to myself to get everyone started.


Love love lovey love.


My grandpa:


After my party, Sergio took me to the movies in Sterling Heights to see Bella, because that was the only movie theater showing it. It was an amazing movie and I cried through half of it. It was the best movie I have seen in a long time. We got to the theater a little early, because I always overestimate time and Sergio let me, because it was my birthday :) Usually he corrects me on time estimation.


After the movie, we went to Max & Erma's. It was really good food, with amazing banana cream pie.

Anywho, that was my birthday :)

American Gangster comes out on Friday. Denzel Washington is my favorite actor and I am pumped to see him in a new movie. 

I had my review today at work. It didn't go badly. I didn't get too loud, but my points were made. Tomorrow is our photo shoot and it's going to be nuts. It's from 1-4, I work from 12-5. We're taking free pictures of the kids and hopefully it's a really good turn out. I'm dressing up in my bee costume and painting my face.

I pulled a muscle lifting a hay bale today, so I didn't go to school. It was killing me and in my back. Sergio came over to see me after school, which was sweet of him. I love when he surprises me.

I can't wait until Friday evening and Saturday, when I have a day off. I have a rough draft of my research paper due Thursday, although I just got an e-mail from my teacher that we're not having class on Thursday, so I'm not sure what is going on. I asked him about the paper being due Thursday, I haven't gotten an e-mail back yet. That'd be nice not to have class on Thursday and it would give me more time to work on this research paper.

No one even reads this anymore.

I need an apartment. I'm done with this nonsense.

El fin.

 
 
Amanda Beck.
28 October 2007 @ 04:53 am

Guess who's 19 today?!


That's me!

 
 
Amanda Beck.
24 October 2007 @ 09:26 pm

Today was quite eventful.

It started off with my complimentary session with my gym's new personal trainer. OUCH. She walked me through an hour long workout and assessment and showed me exercises I can and will be doing at home. It helped a lot having someone to actually show me the right way to do certain exercises, the order to do them in, and the proper stretches that come along with each one. Although my muscles were aching when I walked out of the place, I felt good about myself. Now that I know what I'm doing and I'm actually on a rotation workout for the week, I'm confident this weight will start slipping off of me. I've been doing really well with my diet, not eating fast food, drinking pop, eating candy. I cut out something that I usually eat every week, so that I'm not rapidly changing my diet. It's best to do it little at a time, I'm told. I've also gotten into the habit of eating breakfast, which kickstarts your metabolism and helps you burn calories twice as fast.

I took my Spanish test, and aced it. I drove to Wayne State to grab my credit card from Sergio and I spent a little time with him, which was nice, because I miss him a lot during the day.

I ran some errands and then went to the dentist to get my Invisalign liners put on. I was pretty scared going into it. They hadn't explained much to me and my dental assistant wasn't the woman I usually have. I could barely understand what she was saying, and she didn't say much. They had me lay down and started pouring some purple liquid into my mouth without letting me know what was going on, so that freaked me out a bit. Come to find out, one of my bottom teeth is so bent backwards that they had to build a square on it to help it brace against the liners. They put them on, and the plastic feels really weird. I can't really talk correctly, but they said that'll go away in a few days. I have to wear them constantly, minus eating. I put on a new set every two weeks to help move my teeth. They're not too uncomfortable, and they're pretty invisible. I'd recommend them over regular braces anyday. I've seen the pain that comes from those brackets.

I came home and my fam was leaving for Sears and Kohl's, so I hopped in the car and went with them. My mom bought me a dress shirt and a little sweater and my sisters both got winter clothes. It was a good time to be out with my fam, it hasn't happened in awhile. My sisters and I sang Bonnie Tyler on the top of our lungs to some random man walking by.

I don't have comp tomorrow, so I'll have some time to catch up on homework. My comp teacher is nuts and wants us to read an entire book by next Tuesday. A 340 page book in a week, on my birthday weekend. Pft.

Speaking of this weekend:
Friday = hanging out/working out with Sergio :)
Saturday = my birthday party at noon, maybe a fancy dinner at Wayne for Sergio's organization, CBS
Sunday = my birthday !!!!!!, church with my grandpa, my birthday party at my grandpa's, and plans with Sergio <3



 
 
Amanda Beck.
19 October 2007 @ 02:33 pm
 I had the entire day off today. I was supposed to volunteer this morning, but I slept through that. I slept for twelve hours straight and it felt so nice. I have not slept that long in such a long time.

Sergio, Rocco, and I are going to Apple Charlie's tonight when he gets home from work. I haven't been in a few years. I love picking apples, drinking the cider, going on hayrides.

Tomorrow is my birthday celebration :) We're going to Mexican Gardens at 8:30 and going to the club from there. I'm so excited, it's going to be a good time. It's Alexx, Sammy, Jamie, Joel, Sergio, and myself, so I'm sure it's going to be fantastic! 

I have Sunday off, no plans there yet. I'm sure we won't be getting home from the club until the wee hours of the morning, so I'll probably sleep in. Sergio and I might go to church with my grandpa if he doesn't have to work with his dad. If not, I'll be sleeping all morning and doing some homework. A day home is always refreshing.

Next weekend is my family party and my birthday! The weekend after that is Canada for Jho and I's birthdays (her's is the day before mine). No drinking for me, of course.

Three weekend celebration for my birthday, woot.
 
 
Amanda Beck.
16 October 2007 @ 05:48 am
 I'm running on three hours of sleep. I can tell today is going to be a horrible day.
Veruca has been annoying me all morning, screeching at the top of her little lungs. I took her upstairs with me for a minute and now she won't shut up. It's piercing my ears and adding to the headache I woke up with.

I picked a topic for my research proposal. It's pretty lame, but whatever gets me through the class. I hate how we can't write about anything we want. I loved doing that in high school and supposedly that was how college was supposed to be. Not. We have to analyze a character from a short story we've read or compare an event in one of the novels we've read to a current one. It's a stupid class, and not a research class at all. We just read and do pointless five point quizzes all the time. My 131 teacher was so amazing, this one is a joke. Henry Ford is a joke.

I can't stand the manager I work with for eight hours in an hour. I hate dealing with her at seven am. Only five more months there until I finish this upcoming class and get a way better job.

My birth control pills make me nauseous; to the point where I throw up. They also cause death at night before I take them, to the point where I'm crying like a baby curled up in a ball. It's only the second month I've been on them, so hopefully it's just a transition.

I hate today.
I miss my boyfriend.